I really am putting forth an effort to blog as much as I can!

Today was a nice break.  I worked from 12-7:30 today.  It is not my permanent job.  I just fill in when they need me.  (Or really when I desperately need a break from my children!)  And I REALLY love working there.

Laney was sobbing when I left.  It was bittersweet.  I liked being missed, but sad I was disappointing her.  That lasted about 2 minutes, and I was off.  Not having children grabbing my legs and screaming for juice was music to my ears.  Normal conversations about life rather than why it is important to pee are always inviting!  I arrived home to Laney and Ike performing a dance they had made up for me.  It was pretty cute!  Naked butts and all!

I have a lot of things I have been thinking about lately.  Thoughts of why God gives to some and not others.  Good and bad.  

Why does a couple, who would make amazing parents, struggle with infertility?

Why does someone who loves God and chooses to completely submit their entire being to Him, find themselves suffering in the most heart wrenching ways?

Why do some people hear so clearly from God?

There are so many questions that I have.  And I know that really everything boils down to this question.

"Do you trust God?  Or not?"

6 years ago, I would have flippantly said, "Of course I do!"

A lot has happened since then.  And I find that this faith and trust that I thought was strong and true, was REALLY put to the test.

I can honestly say, I do trust Him.  I trust that as a child of God, whom He loves, would only choose what is best for ME.  Even when I look at other lives, and wish I had what they had, God has chosen something different for me.  And I am learning that in His perfect love, I can trust His plan.  I'm not saying His plan is easy, or even fun. Yes, there are moments of joy.  But, no matter what is thrown at me, I know He loves me, and would not allow it unless there was a specific purpose.

In this place, I find peace.  All of these scriptures I have known my whole life have taken on a new meaning.  I get it now.  I really get it.

So, as I walk with God, and new things are thrown at me, I'm accepting what He has for me.

Now I am done with the "stuff".

Moving onto the GOOD stuff!

So, continuing our fun summer, Jacob has taken up fishing!  And that means Ike has as well!  He loves it!  Ike will tell you all about his fish that he caught!  Ike is turning into this fun little boy, and I am eating up every second of it!

I also have a random picture of them in the van.  It is so funny, I had to share it!

These kids crack me up!

And that is pretty much what we did last week!

Adios!